My life—————-I am beautiful! My situations do not make me ugly. I am always beautiful because God made me. He didn’t make my situations, I did or someone else did. Those are ugly, not me! I am always beautiful. God makes everything beautiful.
The times I didn’t follow God were times that were ugly. Abuse, betrayal, lies, broke, workaholic, obsessive, lonely, defeated, depressed were times in my life that were ugly, but I was always beautiful. God was always with me reminding me that I am wonderfully and beautifully made by him and he always came to my rescue. Times when I didn’t need him, times when I was in control, times when I handled the situation, times when I had enough money and love, times when I saw myself as beautiful.
But those times when I suffered abuse and hatred, when I was betrayed and lied to by people who loved me, when I worked all the time, took care of my family and became obsessed with making money/school to change my situation, times when I was alone and lonely, times when I felt defeated and depressed, times when I saw myself as ugly. Even through the ugly times, God was there. He talked to me in the bathroom on my break time to tell me everything was ok when my marriage was awful. He took away the pain of my broken heart when I wasn’t loved anymore by my husband. He gave me courage when I had to raise my beautiful children by myself. He made me brave when I gave my testimony to young girls from an orphanage in Honduras on a mission trip.
God doesn’t make ugly. He protects me from the ugly until I am ready to let him help me find the beauty. He loves me and he made me beautiful! He knew me and loved me before I was even thought of by others. He knew I would have ugly in my life, but yet he loved me, created me and was there to catch me when the ugliness consumed me. He always knew I would seek him and find him. He pursued me all my life; the same way he pursues you!
You are wonderfully and beautifully made by God on purpose, with purpose and for a purpose! Seek him in your ugliness and he will catch you. He will help you see the beauty of the life he created for you! Seek him and he will show you why you are here! Seek him and he will show you the love you have been missing. Seek him and your life will forever be changed. You will no longer be chained to the ugliness that has consumed your life. You will forever see yourself the way he see you: Beautiful!
13For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. 15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. 17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God! How vast is the sum of them! 18Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand—when I awake, I am still with you.